Losses

Luke is a week away from being 4 months old. And by my last count, I have 522 photos and over a dozen video clips. That's about five photos a day, which doesn't sound too crazy, in my opinion. Is it too crazy? I seem to have lost the ability to judge these things since giving birth.

A dozen and one other things I've lost:

1. My figure. (Need I say more? Now I'm just an odd-shaped human, and no normal clothes will ever fit me again.)
2. Genuine free time. Even when I'm doing things that are somewhat optional (like starting a blog), it's not really "free" - it's more like I'm stealing from other optional things I could be doing during naptime.
3. Most of my desire to wear make-up. Instead I've developed the desire to have been wearing make-up when that photo was taken last Tuesday.
4. My brain. Did I mention that already? I can't remember.
5. Time to read. Aaak. I'm working on getting that back asap.
6. The ability to list an occupation in my Blogger profile. Why don't they have "housewife"? I mean, seriously, there's like a thousand of us out there with our pitiful little blogs flying as desperate declarations that we remember what it was like to think and communicate with other adults! Throw us a bone!
7. A "designed to sell" approved living room. Yes, we've been overtaken by toys. And no, he can't even sit up yet.
8. The ability to not get emotional about the silliest little things.
9. Mornings without a sweet little boy's smile and giggle to make me feel glad to be awake at five am.
10. Lunches without tiny blue eyes watching my every forkful.
11. Exercise that didn't include benchpressing a grinning baby.
12. Bedtimes devoid of bathtime, storytime, family singing, and prayers.

Well, I guess that's not to bad a loss after all. I think I'm gonna like this Mom thing.